Looking beyond the fuckery of life

The great thing about having people in your life is that they add just that little bit of quality to it. They make you smile when you don't want to, they make you happy when you would rather stay angry and they make you laugh so much that you forget the fuckery of life.When you lose one of those people, it leaves a void. A void that can't be filled, when they leave they take that quality they added to your life with them.

The great thing about having a younger sibling is that you always have someone to annoy the shit out of you, and periodically make you laugh. It's great to have someone behind you to pass advice to, someone to set a good example for. Loosing a younger sibling is the worst feeling in the world. It leaves a void that can never be filled. It leaves self doubt and regret running through your mind. The worst torture to a human soul is the phrase "what if". What if it was not real, what of he/she is coming back, what if I had been kinder and less of an icebox.

The universal saying is that time heals all wounds, I'd like to say in my honest opinion that "thats that bullshit". Black and white folks still hate each other and slavery ended ages ago. I will admit that with time it hurts less than it did yesterday, with time it will not hurt and not because the pain disappears but because you accept it. So the void will never disappear but it will become less and less significant as time goes on. Such is the fuckery of life.

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